I used to obsess over grades. I actually dropped a college course or two when it looked like I was only going to get a C, instead of an A. I’ve seen other students actually drop out of college altogether over the lack of perfection.
A guest speaker for senior seminar once gave a lecture about how an A+ grade is not always the best goal. In fact, some employers might look at a straight-A record and wonder about whether the graduate is able to balance their life.
It was a difficult lesson for me.
I’ve struggled with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder all my adult life. There were even a few signs in childhood. I can’t stand to have my fingernails brushed up towards the cuticles. I count when I’m anxious. I need patterns.
These are the small things. I could make an extensive list, but that’s not the point.
I composed my last #ROW80 post in a certain format, with a breakdown of word count etc.
It bothers me that I don’t have that ready for today. My OCD desperately wants to have a similar post, formatted the same way, with updated statistics for everything.
But I have learned to deal with my OCD. I still feel the urge to have things a certain way, but I am also able to choose to move ahead even when I am not able to have everything lined up perfectly.
It has been a busy few days. I did some writing in a notebook, and haven’t transcribed it. There have been blog posts and a little fiction, but I need to find a better way to keep track of it all. I think if I counted it all up, I might be close to my goal of 1k/day, but I’m not sure.
How’s everybody else doing with their Round of Words?
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